Journey to Utopia!!

I have plans for my life but i don't know where to start. Do you also feel this sadness? you've been working for a long time but still you haven't achieve anything.  I can really say "I am still a loser " talunan pa din ako hanggang ngayun, walang kwenta padin ang tingin ko sa sarili ko( pessimistic right?kasi yun naman ang totoo. ) . I haven't figured it out yet what i wanna do with my life. I've been searching for a while now. (nawawala na nga yata ako). Can someone tell me what do i have to do ? where should i start ? or better yet give up and quit? I'm still praying that one of this days i can find the answers to this questions.( please let it be sooner). PS : PLEASE..............................................(insert sad emoji)

I've been trying to changed my URL for my blog this past few days, but it's keeps coming out as a problem .I think the system is not allowing to update that part, more like the universe doesn't want me to forget my past.( kainis talaga ! ). I tried to changed that from glessygabileo24.blogspot.com to glessygabileo15.blogspot.com , it's frustrating because the day before yesterday i managed to changed it to  glessygabileo15.blogspot.com   but all of a sudden my few comments from my friends"gone"( I'm doomed) .The most stupid thing i did  was  not reading the reminder from my page .It says " Warning: You are using Google+ Comments. Changing the blog URL will negatively impact existing comments.  Learn more " Ang stupid ko talaga minsan ( ay palagi pala ) . Now it's back to glessygabileo24.blogspot.com  because my friend tried to search my page while it's under glessygabileo15.blogspot.com and it shows "none existing blog" ...

My life is a mess.

 I am not a quiet person ....maybe sometimes i'm too loud .There are these times that i just want to be alone . I am not mad or lonely .... that's who i am . I intend to shot people out .. I really like some space. I am a hypocrite telling myself that i don't give a shit   to what others think about me but you might not notice it , yes i do care about what they think , i just don't have time to think of it more often.I don't know what's wrong with me ,sometimes when i'm all alone i talk to myself and ended up thinking that i might getting insane or something .For me ,the best companion is myself , one of my friends asked me to go to their house but most of the time i made up excuses , the truth is when that happen , i choose being with myself (alone) . Do you know that there are times i am afraid to speak because i might say bad things to someone that they might not like it . I am boring , that's how i define myself ..... Naaawa nga ...