Journey to Utopia!!

"JUST FRIENDS" -lang leav                                                              Can I ask for more ? or this is just what it is ?                                                                              You're just "my friend" ?

I have plans for my life, but I don't know where to start. Do you ever feel this sadness? You've been working for a long time, yet you still haven't achieved anything. I can honestly say, "I'm still a loser." Talunan pa rin ako hanggang ngayon. I still see myself as worthless. (Pessimistic, right? But that's how I honestly feel.) I still haven't figured out what I want to do with my life. I've been searching for answers for a long time now. ( Nawawala na nga yata ako. ) Can someone tell me what I should do? Where should I start? Or better yet, should I just give up and quit? I'm still praying that one of these days, I can find the answers to all of these questions. Please let that day come sooner. PS : PLEASE..............................................(insert sad emoji)

I've been trying to change the URL of my blog for the past few days, but it keeps giving me problems. I think the system isn't allowing me to update that part—it's almost like the universe doesn't want me to forget my past. (Kainis talaga!) I tried changing it from glessygabileo24.blogspot.com to glessygabileo15.blogspot.com , and it's frustrating because the day before yesterday, I actually managed to change it to glessygabileo15.blogspot.com . But all of a sudden, some of the comments from my friends disappeared. (I'm doomed!) The stupidest thing I did was not reading the reminder on my page. It said: "Warning: You are using Google+ Comments. Changing the blog URL will negatively impact existing comments. Learn more." Ang stupid ko talaga minsan... ay, palagi pala! Now it's back to glessygabileo24.blogspot.com because my friend tried searching for my page while it was under glessygabileo15.blogspot.com , and it showed "non-existent blog....

My life is a mess.

I am not a quiet person—maybe sometimes I'm even too loud. But there are times when I just want to be alone. I am not mad or lonely; that's just who I am. I tend to shut people out because I really like having my own space. I am a hypocrite when I tell myself that I don't give a shit about what other people think of me. The truth is, I do care. You just might not notice it because I don't spend too much time thinking about it. I don't know what's wrong with me. Sometimes, when I'm all alone, I talk to myself and end up thinking that I might be going insane or something. For me, the best companion is myself. One of my friends often asks me to visit their house, but most of the time I make up excuses. The truth is, whenever that happens, I choose to spend time with myself instead. Do you know that there are times when I'm afraid to speak because I might say something that other people won't like? I am boring—that's how I define myself. Naaawa nga a...

                    Huh!! Where should I start? Twilight is one of the fictional movies that I like. No, scratch that—I love it! I love the story, I love the cast, and I love everything about this film. I've been hoping to read the Twilight books by Stephenie Meyer. I want to read every book in the series from beginning to end. I'm also wishing she would write another sequel because I still can't get over it until now. (By the way, I used to pray that Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson would get back together and eventually end up married in real life.) Call me crazy about them and the movie, but yes, I am! Let me tell you this: I'm not really a fan of Kristen and Robert as celebrities, but I am a fan of their characters in the movie. That's why I wanted them to be husband and wife forever. And hello! They look so good together! Sana talaga magkabalikan sila. Oh my, this is wrong. Hahaha! I also used to wish that I could become a va...

I will do everything to become whole again. I will help myself get back on my feet. I will do everything to find myself—my lost self. He left me alone. He made me regret everything. He made me regret being with him, and he left my heart broken. But I know that one day, this pain will help shape who I become. --Everything...everything....

Too afraid to try again ....

She really doesn't want to see you. She wants to be happy again without regretting what was ruined. She wants to trust people again, just like she did before. We all know that the agony won't stop until she accepts everything. She can't accept that she ruined what she had planned. She can't start over if she doesn't know how. How can she forgive herself if the monsters are still hunting her down even now? She started regretting everything when you left her. She thinks it was a wake-up call—a sign that everything that happened was a catastrophe, a disaster. You left her blinded. You left her alone. You left her barely breathing without even realizing that it was over. She doesn't want to spend her whole life feeling furious—neither at herself nor at you. She was so blind that she never realized you didn't actually want her forever. Maybe one day she'll be happy to see that you're happy. But for now, please let her deal with this bitterness. She doesn...

I've been posting quotations and thoughts about the books I've read, but this time I thought I'd write an entry about the movie Me Before You by Jojo Moyes. I haven't read the book yet, but I have a feeling that I'll love it just as much as I loved the film. I know that most people have already watched the movie, but for those who haven't, don't worry—I won't spoil anything. For those who enjoy romantic drama films, I think you'll love this movie. Just make sure to prepare some tissues or a napkin because it can be quite emotional. I really loved the movie. I also have a crush on Sam Claflin. He's so handsome, and I absolutely love his accent. ❤ I hope I'll get the chance to read the book someday. I know where I can buy a copy, but it's a little too expensive for me right now. "When something good happens, sometimes a very special thing comes to an end." One day, all of us will have to face reality. If something special ...

1. “Believe in yourself! Have faith in your abilities! Without a humble but reasonable confidence in your own powers you cannot be successful or happy.” — Norman Vincent Peale 2. “If you can dream it, you can do it.” — Walt Disney 3. “Where there is a will, there is a way. If there is a chance in a million that you can do something, anything, to keep what you want from ending, do it. Pry the door open or, if need be, wedge your foot in that door and keep it open.” — Pauline Kael 4. “Do not wait; the time will never be ‘just right.’ Start where you stand, and work with whatever tools you may have at your command, and better tools will be found as you go along.” — George Herbert 5. “Press forward. Do not stop, do not linger in your journey, but strive for the mark set before you.” — George Whitefield 6. “The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.” — Eleanor Roosevelt 7. “Aim for the moon. If you miss, you may hit a star.” — W. Clement Stone ...

          Welcome 2018! "Happy New Year!" That's the first thing that came to mind, even though it's super, super late for that. (I still want to welcome 2018 to my blog. Hahaha!) It's been so long since my last blog entry. The last post I published was on December 4, 2017. Last year pa 'yun—grabe, ang tagal na pala! I've been having a hard time these past few weeks trying to think of something to blog about. Honestly, they haven't been very productive weeks for me. I planned to write something about our Christmas party (our family Christmas party, actually), but I ended up writing nothing. I just couldn't think straight during those weeks. I felt really frustrated because I didn't know what to post. I need to update my blog because what's the point of having this site if I'm not going to keep it updated? So before we all end up crying because of this topic, hahaha, let me just share a few anecdotes about the past few weeks. Dur...