Journey to Utopia!!

        Should I say it’s Thursday? Or more like Friday already? It’s already 4:48 AM, and since it’s LCV (low call volume), I got a chance to write something (random thoughts lang). My hands are itching to write, and even though these hands of mine are tired from uninterrupted typing, I still choose to release my thoughts and express my feelings through this. I don’t know, but I find it hard to share my thoughts and feelings with someone, maybe because they might find them uninteresting. Maybe that’s how life goes—some people are born with the confidence to express their feelings to anyone, but for me, it’s hard (they might not understand). You’ll usually find me writing when I’m happy, but most of the time when I am forlorn. I’ve been having so many thoughts lately—it feels like my head will burst any minute. Hi everyone! (Hahaha, “everyone” naman—parang ang daming readers.) Ah basta!! Hi!! There are many things I really want to do, and I don’t know where ...

The day you walked away, you took my heart and breath away. Memories haunt me every day, and it feels like I am dying every single day. I saw his smile that day, and I saw her smile the same way. How I wished I could be that girl, so this pain could never turn into anger. I never thought there could be an ending between you and I. Then I realized there was never a “you and I.” From the very start, I could never own what was never mine. Maybe this really is the end for me and you, and a new start for both of you too. Sorry I hurt you, sorry I lost you, but you see, I’ve lost myself too. Living this life feels like never-ending pain, but at least I realized that loving you is one of the most painful things. I know there will be a denouement to this drama. “Sorry” and “goodbye” are the words I want to hear from you, and “goodbye” will be my perfect answer to you too. PS:This poem is not perfect but hope you'll like it. Have a great day !!!

I can’t remember exactly, but I finished reading this book about two weeks ago. I didn’t get the opportunity to write an entry about it then, so here it is. I accompanied my mom to the airport because she was going to Manila that day. After that, I went to SM Mall, and I don’t even know why. Hahaha!! I have this weird habit sometimes—I love going to bookstores just to check things out or buy books. (Hahaha! Of course you ended up buying a book—you were in a bookstore, right?) Talking to myself (insert sarcasm). I don’t know what got into me, but I checked the book section again that time. I saw a book by Marcelo Santos III titled Para sa Broken Hearted . The truth is, I wasn’t familiar with his name—I didn’t really know him until that day. I later found out that he is also the author of Para sa Hopeless Romantic . At first, I thought Para sa Broken Hearted was all about advice, lessons, or steps on how to move on. Hahaha! I started reading the synopsis (I don’t know the corr...

Sometimes I drink milk before I go to sleep. I don’t know—they say it helps you fall asleep. I am terrified of dogs… no, actually, dog barks. (I guess it’s the same.) I love pink and black. I want to get a tattoo and a navel piercing (belly button piercing), but my mother would kill me if I did that (of course, it’s a hyperbole). She doesn’t want me to get a tattoo. I don’t know about a navel piercing—I never asked her about it before. I can say I am an introvert. I really want to learn how to play guitar, piano, and drums. I just don’t know how to start. (UHHH!! Hopeless case.) I can’t live without earphones and music. I can stay at home or in my room all day. I love doing things alone—shopping, buying stuff, or even eating alone. (Told you, I am an introvert.) Maybe some people or my friends don’t know this side of me. I love movies. (Maybe you all know that already since it’s one of my hobbies. Hahaha!) I love music, but music doesn’t love me. (You know!) I lov...