Random thoughts!



She really don't want to see you . She want to be happy again without regretting what was ruined . She want to trust people again just like before .We all know that agony will not gonna stop until she'll accept everything.She can't accept that she ruined what she had  planned . She can't  start again if she don't know how? How she can forgive herself if the monsters are still hunting her down up to this now ?She started regretting all things when you left her, she thinks it's a wake up call that all that happened is catastrophe(it's disaster).You left her blinded , you left her alone and you left her barely breathing without knowing that it is over. She don't want to be furious with her entire life and of course with you. She was so blind not knowing you didn't actually want her forever. Maybe one day she'll be able to see herself happy to see you happy but for now please let her handle this bitterness. She didn't want you to feel that it's all your fault but right now she knew it feels that way. She  hope someday she'll find her way out in the dark and see the light and she hope to see herself not regretting meeting you. She want to let you know that it is not all your fault baka siya lang talaga ang may kasalanan pero ngayong hayaan mo syang magalit muna sayo (it is better that way). Let her handle all the regrets for now maybe one day she'll find a way out here.She know she can't come back to what kind of person she was before .She hope you both breath easily someday and find your real happiness.Anger will not gonna stay forever (sabi ko naman sa kanya walang forever).This pain and anger she still want it for now , it makes her feel alive and keep her move forward. She knows that the ending in this forlorn moment is near but she knows it is not over yet , yes! it is getting better . It's gonna be easier but she know that pain is not over yet  it is really gonna get easier somehow.
 BUT NOT TODAY!!...........




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