Random thoughts!

She really doesn't want to see you.

She wants to be happy again without regretting what was ruined. She wants to trust people again, just like she did before.

We all know that the agony won't stop until she accepts everything.

She can't accept that she ruined what she had planned. She can't start over if she doesn't know how. How can she forgive herself if the monsters are still hunting her down even now?

She started regretting everything when you left her. She thinks it was a wake-up call—a sign that everything that happened was a catastrophe, a disaster.

You left her blinded. You left her alone. You left her barely breathing without even realizing that it was over.

She doesn't want to spend her whole life feeling furious—neither at herself nor at you. She was so blind that she never realized you didn't actually want her forever.

Maybe one day she'll be happy to see that you're happy. But for now, please let her deal with this bitterness.

She doesn't want you to think that it's all your fault, but right now, she knows it feels that way.

She hopes that someday she'll find her way out of the darkness and finally see the light. She hopes to see herself no longer regretting the day she met you.

She wants you to know that it isn't entirely your fault. Baka siya lang talaga ang may kasalanan. But for now, let her be angry with you. Mas mabuti na siguro iyon.

Let her carry all the regrets for now. Maybe one day she'll find a way out of this.

She knows she can never go back to the person she used to be.

She hopes that someday both of you will be able to breathe easily again and find your own happiness.

Anger won't stay forever. (Sabi ko naman sa kanya, walang forever.)

For now, she still wants this pain and anger. It makes her feel alive. It keeps her moving forward.

She knows that this chapter of sorrow is slowly coming to an end, but she also knows it isn't over yet.

Yes, it is getting better.

It will get easier.

But she also knows that the pain isn't gone yet.

Somehow, someday, it will become easier.

BUT NOT TODAY.

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