I'll be here for both of you through it all
I really don't know how to express myself today , i feel forlorn since Sunday and it's because of her open letter . I love them both and it hurts so much to see her in this melancholy moment. I only wish for both of them to be happy .I'll admit it ( kasama ako sa mga taong gusto din na magkatuluyan silang dalawa pero hindi naman natin pweding ipilit ang isang bagay na hindi nila ikasisiya .) There's always a perfect time for everything ( Tamang panahon nga sabi n lola diba .)All that she wants is the happiness that she deserve. ( Subra akong nasaktan sa sinabi nyang "hindi na sya masaya".) I feel her pain ( anu ba bakit ba ako nasasaktan? , bakit ako masyadong affected ?Hindi nya naman ako kilala , hindi naman kami close pero bakit nasasaktan ako para sa kanya . Tingin ko ang sagot kasi subrang minahal ko na silang dalawa subrang naging inspirasyon at subra nila akong binigyan ng saya sa mga panahong yung lungkot sa puso ko ay kaya na din akong kainin.Kaya ngayong malungkot ka/kayong dalawa , alam nyo bang subrang lungkot ko din .)
Since yesterday after I've read the letter ,every time i see a photo or video of both of them,i wanna hide and start to cry. I am here at work right now but it feels like i was crashed by a 10 wheeler truck "ay oh subra sya ".( anung nangyayare sakin ? ). She also said that after we read the letter it might end up to hatred and some of the fans will turn their backs to M and A . How i wish it will not happen , i wish they will love Alden and Maine truly . Diba dapat kapag love mo masaya ka sa mga bagay na nagpapasaya sa kanila .I know it really hurts that it comes from her that they're only friends.( Oo aminin ko , umasa at umaasa padin ako kasi doon ako nagtatanim ng hope na maybe there is really a great love story that will happen and i am still hoping that they might end up together.) (
On the other hand , we have to take some positive things behind that letter . Diba dapat ang happiness hindi pinipilit, diba kung alam mong makapagpapasaya sa mahal mo ikaw pa mismo ang magbibigay noon para sa kanya .Hindi naman pwedeng dahil gusto nating mangyare ang isang bagay ay ayun ang ipipilit natin para sa isang tao , hindi pwede ipilit ang isang bagay kung hindi naman masaya ang taong mahal natin. We have to accept things that some of it are not really meant to happen .( Hindi lahat ng mangyayare ay laging nakaayon sa ating kagustuhan .)
Pero kahit umaasa ako hindi ko ipipilit ang isang bagay sa kanya na hindi naman sila magiging masaya .Masakit din kasi na maraming nasasabi ang ibang tao na masasakit na salita laban sa kanya/kanila at sa mga taong nadidikit sa kanila . Hindi na ba sila pwedeng makipaghalubilo sa iba? Dapat ba doon lang sila sa comfort zone sa box na ginawa natin para sa kanila ? Napakalaki ng mundo para sa kanila/para sa ating lahat, may saliri silang buhay at minsan nga ang pribadong buhay nila napapakialaman nadin .( That's wrong ).Napapasaya nila ako at kontento na ako doon karapatan din naman nilang sumaya . Hindi nila deserve ang mga masasakit na salita dahil wala naman silang ginagawang masama . They made and making a lot of people happy , it's time for us as a fans to support them , be with them ,be happy for what makes them happy.
( WALANG IWANAN DIBA?)I won't blame the others that they might let go .( ayaw na nila , dito natin masusubok kung hanggang saan talaga ang love nila .) 2 years palang suko na ? diba dapat support lang kapag mahal mo ?. Asan na yung walang iwanan ? asan na yung genuine love . (Si Maine at Alden lang ba ang genuine ?) .
I am sharing this because i want to release my thoughts and feelings about the whole thing . Sorry if you'll find this blog harsh . I just want to unleash my sadness ( pero ang lungkot padin knowing na malungkot sila ).
Hindi yata
To Maine and Alden, I want to let you know that nothing's gonna change ,i will always be an aldub fan , hindi ako hihinto sa pagsupport at pagmamahal sa inyo hindi man active, hindi nyo man nakikita, hindi man ako tulad ng iba, hindi ko man kayo makita ng personal pero andito padin ako at palaging nandito . Diba nga walang iwanan , you both deserve to be happy . ( Sana maging happy kayong dalawa please please please that's my wish for you two , sabi ko nga i'll support each individuals no matter what) Aldubyou and nothing's gonna change that.
You both might don't know i am existing in this ghastly world but this is what i feel for both of you .
( MAINE AND ALDEN )
Ps. If you want to read the whole letter please visit http://mainemendoza.com/
(THE PESSIMISTIC OPTIMIST BELLA)
I guess we have to experience sadness to know the importance of happiness , lets remind ourselves that not everyday is a good day.(that's the way it is ) C'est la vie .
